THE INTERIOR OF A HEART After the incident last described, the intercourse between the clergyman and the physician, though externally the same, was really of another character than it had previously been. The intellect of Roger Chillingworth had now a sufficiently plain path before it. It was not, indeed, precisely that which he had laid out for himself to tread. Calm, gentle, ionless, as he appeared, there was yet, we fear, a quiet depth of malice, hitherto latent, but active now, in this unfortunate old man, which led him to imagine a more intimate revenge than any mortal had ever wreaked upon an enemy. To make himself the one trusted friend, to whom should be confided all the fear, the remorse, the agony, the ineffectual repentance, the backward rush of sinful thoughts, expelled in vain! All that guilty sorrow, hidden from the world, whose great heart would have pitied and forgiven, to be revealed to him, the Pitiless—to him, the Unforgiving! All that dark treasure to be lavished on the very man, to whom nothing else could so adequately pay the debt of vengeance!
The clergyman's shy and sensitive reserve had balked this scheme. Roger Chillingworth, however, was inclined to be hardly, if at all, less satisfied with the aspect of affairs, which Providence—using the avenger and his victim for its own purposes, and, perchance, pardoning, where it seemed most to punish—had substituted for his black devices. A revelation, he could almost say, had been granted to him. It mattered little for his object, whether celestial or from what other region. By its aid, in all the subsequent relations betwixt him and Mr. Dimmesdale, not merely the external presence, but the very inmost soul of the latter, seemed to be brought out before his eyes, so that he could see and comprehend its every movement. He became, thenceforth, not a spectator only, but a chief actor in the poor minister's interior world. He could play upon him as he chose. Would he arouse him with a throb of agony? The victim was for ever on the rack; it needed only to know the spring that controlled the engine: and the physician knew it well. Would he startle him with sudden fear? As at the waving of a magician's wand, up rose a grisly phantom—up rose a thousand phantoms—in many shapes, of death, or more awful shame, all flocking round about the clergyman, and pointing with their fingers at his breast!
All this was accomplished with a subtlety so perfect, that the minister, though he had constantly a dim perception of some evil influence watching over him, could never gain a knowledge of its actual nature. True, he looked doubtfully, fearfully—even, at times, with horror and the bitterness of hatred—at the deformed figure of the old physician. His gestures, his gait, his grizzled beard, his slightest and most indifferent acts, the very fashion of his garments, were odious in the clergyman's sight; a token implicitly to be relied on of a deeper antipathy in the breast of the latter than he was willing to acknowledge to himself. For, as it was impossible to assign a reason for such distrust and abhorrence, so Mr. Dimmesdale, conscious that the poison of one morbid spot was infecting his heart's entire substance, attributed all his presentiments to no other cause. He took himself to task for his bad sympathies in reference to Roger Chillingworth, disregarded the lesson that he should have drawn from them, and did his best to root them out. Unable to accomplish this, he nevertheless, as a matter of principle, continued his habits of social familiarity with the old man, and thus gave him constant opportunities for perfecting the purpose to which—poor forlorn creature that he was, and more wretched than his victim—the avenger had devoted himself.
While thus suffering under bodily disease, and gnawed and tortured by some black trouble of the soul, and given over to the machinations of his deadliest enemy, the Reverend Mr. Dimmesdale had achieved a brilliant popularity in his sacred office. He won it indeed, in great part, by his sorrows. His intellectual gifts, his moral perceptions, his power of experiencing and communicating emotion, were kept in a state of preternatural activity by the prick and anguish of his daily life. His fame, though still on its upward slope, already overshadowed the soberer reputations of his fellow-clergymen, eminent as several of them were. There are scholars among them, who had spent more years in acquiring abstruse lore, connected with the divine profession, than Mr. Dimmesdale had lived; and who might well, therefore, be more profoundly versed in such solid and valuable attainments than their youthful brother. There were men, too, of a sturdier texture of mind than his, and endowed with a far greater share of shrewd, hard iron, or granite understanding; which, duly mingled with a fair proportion of doctrinal ingredient, constitutes a highly respectable, efficacious, and unamiable variety of the clerical species. There were others again, true saintly fathers, whose faculties had been elaborated by weary toil among their books, and by patient thought, and etherealised, moreover, by spiritual communications with the better world, into which their purity of life had almost introduced these holy personages, with their garments of mortality still clinging to them. All that they lacked was, the gift that descended upon the chosen disciples at Pentecost, in tongues of flame; symbolising, it would seem, not the power of speech in foreign and unknown languages, but that of addressing the whole human brotherhood in the heart's native language. These fathers, otherwise so apostolic, lacked Heaven's last and rarest attestation of their office, the Tongue of Flame. They would have vainly sought—had they ever dreamed of seeking—to express the highest truths through the humblest medium of familiar words and images. Their voices came down, afar and indistinctly, from the upper heights where they habitually dwelt. |
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EL INTERIOR DE UN CORAZN DESPUS del suceso ltimamente referido, las relaciones entre Dimmesdale y el mdico, aunque en apariencia las mismas, eran en realidad de un carcter distinto al que haban tenido antes. El mdico vea ahora una senda bien sencilla que seguir, aunque no precisamente la que l se haba trazado. a pesar de lo tranquilo, apacible y fro que pareca, era de temerse que existiera en l un fondo de malignidad, hasta entonces latente, pero ahora activa, que le impulsaba a imaginar una venganza ms ntima que la que ningn otro mortal hubiera tomado jams de su enemigo. Aspir a convertirse en el amigo fiel a cuyo corazn se confiara todo el temor, el remordimiento, la agona, el arrepentimiento intil, la repetida invasin de ideas pecaminosas que en vano haba querido rechazar. Todo aquel dolor culpable, oculto a las miradas del mundo y del que ste se habra compadecido y le habra perdonado, deba revelrsele a l, el Implacable, a l, que no perdonara jams. Todo aquel tenebroso secreto tena que mostrarse precisamente al hombre a quien ninguna otra cosa podra colmar, como esta y de una manera tan completa, el deseo de venganza!
La natural reserva y esquivez del joven ministro haba sido un obstculo para este plan. El mdico, sin embargo, no estaba dispuesto a darse por satisfecho con el aspecto que, casi providencialmente, tom el asunto en sustitucin a los negros planes que l se trazara. Poda decir que se le haba hecho una revelacin; y poco le importaba que su procedencia fuera celestial o infernal. Gracias a esa inesperada revelacin, en todas sus relaciones subsecuentes con el Sr. Dimmesdale, pareca que lo ms recndito del alma del joven ministro estaba visible a los ojos del mdico para que pudiese observar y estudiar sus ms ntimas emociones. Desde entonces se convirti, no slo en espectador, sino tambin en actor principal de lo que pasaba en lo ms recndito del pecho del pobre ministro. Poda hacer de l lo que quisiera. Si se le antojaba despertarle con una sensacin de agona, ah estaba su vctima sobre el potro del tormento. Slo necesitaba mover ciertos resortes de su alma, que el mdico conoca perfectamente. Quera estremecerle con un sbito temor? Como si obedeciese a la varilla de un mgico prodigioso, surgan mil visiones de formas diferentes, que giraban en torno del infeliz eclesistico con los dedos apuntando a su pecho.
Todo esto lo ejecutaba con tan perfecta sutileza, que el ministro, aunque constantemente con una vaga percepcin de que algo maligno le estaba vigilando, nunca pudo darse cuenta exacta de su verdadera naturaleza. Es cierto que miraba con duda y temor, y aun a veces con espanto e intensa aversin, al viejo mdico. Sus gestos, sus movimientos, su barba gris, sus acciones ms insignificantes e indiferentes, hasta el corte y la moda de su traje, le eran odiosos: seal todo de una antipata en el corazn del ministro ms profunda de lo que l se hallaba dispuesto a confesarse a s mismo. Y como era imposible asignar una causa a tal desconfianza y aversin, el Sr. Dimmesdale, con la conciencia de que el veneno de algn punto mrbido en su espritu le estaba inficionando todo el corazn, atribua a esto todos sus presentimientos. Se empe, pues, en curarse de sus antipatas hacia el viejo mdico, y sin parar mientes en lo que deba haber deducido de ellas, hizo cuanto pudo para extirparlas. Sindole imposible conseguirlo, continu sus hbitos de relaciones familiares con el anciano, proporcionndole de este modo oportunidades constantes para que el vengativo mdico,—pobre y msera criatura ms infeliz que su vctima,—consiguiese el fin a que haba dedicado toda su energa. Mientras padeca corporalmente, con el alma corroda y atormentada por alguna causa tenebrosa, y entregado por completo a las maquinaciones de su ms mortal enemigo, el Reverendo Sr. Dimmesdale haba ido alcanzado una brillante popularidad en su sagrado ministerio. En gran parte la obtuvo seguramente merced a sus padecimientos. Sus dotes intelectuales, sus percepciones morales, su facultad de comunicar a otros las emociones que l mismo experimentaba, le mantenan en un estado de actividad sobrenatural debido a la angustia e inquietud de su vida diaria. Su fama, aunque todava en constante ascenso, haba dejado ya en la sombra las reputaciones menos brillantes de algunos de sus colegas, entre los cuales se contaban hombres que haban empleado en adquirir sus conocimientos teolgicos muchos ms aos que los que tena de edad el Sr. Dimmesdale, y que por lo tanto deberan de hallarse mucho ms llenos de slida ciencia que su joven compaero. Haba otros dotados de ms tenaz empeo, de mayor peso y gravedad, cualidades que, unidas a cierta dosis de conocimientos teolgicos, constituye una variedad eficiente y altamente digna de respeto, aunque poco amable, de la especie clerical. Otros haba, verdaderos Santos Padres, cuyas facultades se haban desenvuelto con el paciente, constante e infatigable estudio de los libros, y cuya pureza de vida puede decirse que los haba puesto en comunicacin espiritual con un mundo superior. Pero todos estos hombres carecan de aquel don divino que descendi sobre los discpulos del Seor en lenguas de llamas el da de Pentecosts, simbolizando, no solo la facultad de hablar en idiomas extraos y desconocidos, sino la de dirigirse a todo el gnero humano en el idioma propio del corazn. Todos estos ministros, por lo dems muy apostlicos, carecan de ese don divino de una lengua de llamas. Vanamente habran procurado, dado el caso que lo intentaran, expresar las verdades ms sublimes por medio de voces e imgenes familiares. |